well to sum it up..i had a pretty good 1st mother's day. i woke up to beautiful sounds on the baby monitor. coming from my sweet 5 month old son. he woke at around 6am and i didn't go to his room to get him til about 8. so i'm guessing he went back to sleep, but i swear it was if he talked straight for 2 hours. teehee.
i got a little blue today. i have a mother yes. but i do not speak with her. last i spoke to her was at my wedding in 3/2008. wait..i didn't even talk to her then. she sat on the back pew dressed in a huge fluffy brown dress. one that you would wear if you were in a western movie. and i think i was told she wore long white gloves. we had a few words 2 days before i got married and so i guess she still 'had her feelings hurt' from that. so we went to eat with tyler's fam. which i love. but my fam was supposed to come. my dad screwed that one up. long story. but to say the least. he hasn't called to tell me happy mother's day. tear. i guess i'm not 'his momma' though. and well while eating out with tyler's fam. i got a little upset over something his mom did. john tyler was sleepy and ready to go so he could lay down. i told tyler we needed to hurry and eat so we could get home to put him to bed. because he by this time hadn't had his morning nap due to church. so he was real tired. we went to cracker barrel and that took forever. you can only imagine. anyway, she heard me say that to tyler and got her feelings hurt big time. and said i was going to make her cry bc we were going to have to leave and i asked her...why? at the time i thought she was kidding. here we are in the middle of cracker barrel with our 5month old and he is having a fit all bc he wants his bed and my mil is telling me that she was going to cry if we left so then she proceeds to tell me that he would be ok and that we shouldn't leave. i looked at her and told her i wasn't going to sit there and just listen to my son get so upset if i could help it. anyway. sorry i'm ramblin. but this really bothered me. here i am on mother's day. not exactly what i wanted to be doing on my mothers day. considering i had no family there with ME. and my mil is telling me she's going to cry...it was a pretty quiet lunch after all that. there's a lil more to the story but i won't bore you. i guess she just thought that lunch was all about her so that also offended me.
tyler gave me two cds- darius rucker and lady antebellum...very excited. also gave me money to go get my hair done in a couple weeks. since i'm staying at home now i don't think i'll be able to go and do that very often. so that'll be nice.
also since my mom has been in and out of my life for years, god blessed me with tons of 'like a moms'! and the one dearest to my heart-mrs. rhonda (who i will be celebrating next Mother's day with) has been recording john tyler since he has entered the world. so she had a dvd of 4 months worth of john tyler. it was super funny too bc she films me after i had just had john tyler and all i wanted was chick-fil-a sweet tea...and no one had any at that moment. they were on their way. but that wasn't good enough. you can tell i wasn't happy. i had just given birth. and i had no sweet tea ready for me :( if anyone knew me while i was pregnant with john tyler that is what i craved non-stop. i think i drank my weight in sweet tea each week!
john tyler is my perfect little angel. i love him with all of my heart.
one thing i know for sure is someone's not going to tell me what or how to raise my lil one. i'm sure there will be more probs later on. and i know quite a few parents deal with that. like you get on to your child for something and your parents say...don't get on to him for that or don't spank him.
happy mother's day to all of you mothers. all my friends that are new mothers. way to go. i am inspired by each and every one of you. may god bless you and your family and keep you close to his heart.
john tyler,
you sweet momma loves you so very much. you really are the best lil one ever. you love reaching for things and putting everything in your mouth. you also love your voice. you have found it and you love to use it. the guy that kept you in the nursery today, mr. chris, said he nicknamed you beechnut. i, of course, didn't know what that was so he told me it was because your cheeks were so chubby and it looked like you had a wad in your mouth and you kept spittin. i don't know whether to laugh at that or be offended. mommy's nickname for you is 'booger bear' most of the time. or any other sweet names i come out with at the time. i love the way you suck your thumb and rub the back of your head. it melts my heart. you have my heart john tyler. and i pray for you every day. and i pray that i would teach you in the way you should go and that you would follow jesus. know him and make him known.
i love you,
momma
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